honestly, this ear piercing effected me more then it did lila. my anxiety levels were high today. i kept thinking, “why would i purposely hurt my baby for vanity? what a horrible mommy i’ve become, sheez!” but i remembered, they’re doing both ears at the same time. it will be quick. the pain will be quick. i bet lila will cry about the shock of the ordeal, then the pain. i sat her down on my lap, held her arms, while another person held her head and on the count of 3..they did it!
seriously. people. lila is like triple adorable now! those little ears def. needed some adorable bling. so now lila and i are both sport tiny “diamond” studs. i’m not into the big ugly earings..just tiny little hoops or studs:) so it’s only natural that lila get’s earnings like her mommy! duh?!
daddy wasn’t 100% for the idea of his little girl getting earings. he kept saying that it would take the baby away. but she’s not a little baby anymore! he and i made a deal to wait at least till she’s a year old…i bet when he see’s her tonight, he’s gunna love them!
i plan to take her valentines pictures this weekend, so you’ll be able to see her cuteness then. they are a bit red and swollen..but other then that lila is all smiles and did AWESOME! she’s back to her goober self. LAV!
as most of you know, i’m a MAJOR blog stalker. seriously, i read 100′s of blogs a week. ranging from photography blogs..to family personal blogs..to blogs of special kids..to mommy blogs..to DIY blogs..to completely random-no-category blogs. i was reading a blog tonight, about a random girl talking about honesty with blogging. it got me thinking.
she writes below-
“For some reason, the bloggers that get really big, that always get the most enthusiastic comments, that have a whole swarm of readers, are the ones that seem perfect. They’re the ones that seem to have an absolutely perfect life, skipping from one fun activity to the next, with nothing that ever seems to drag them down.
But recently, I’ve noticed that I’m not really reading those blogs anymore. Sure, I’ll scan through their fun day out pictures, but that’s really it. I spend more time reading and responding to blogs that are truthful about their struggles, truthful that they might not have everything together. I feel much closer to bloggers that don’t seem to have this perfect, unshakable facade.”
this is what i wanted my “my holland” blog to be described as..HONEST. between lila’s hospital stays, genetic oops, seizures, to loosing our house, to my miscarriage and etc..i want my blog to tell the truth. to help my readers know me from the inside..not so much the outside (ie. a photographer, a wife, a mother.), but deep down on the inside. my feelings. the bad times. the sad times. the not so good times. remember, you have to take the bad with the good sometimes? i felt in my previous photography blog, it was all good. all awesome. but really my life isn’t always good and awesome. and i’m glad. through every circumstance, i’ve become stronger. gained wisdom and truth. got closer to my family. appreciate the small things. to not judge. i hope my struggles and learning outcomes do the same for my readers, in some way. in their own way. it’s amazing how one person’s life can change another’s life!
here’s some truth about me. (i got the idea from another fellow blogger)
i AM that mom that dislikes being away from my children, even if it’s only for an hour.
i AM that wife that really stinks at cleaning, organizing, dusting.
i AM that girl who is horrible at balancing a check book or even aware of what checks i’ve written and passed out to others.
i AM that student who procrastinates their homework until HOURS before class.
actually i procrastinate everything.
i AM that girl who is late for appointments or actually forgets the appointment all together.
i AM that girl that washes and dry’s the laundry, but leaves heaps of clean/unfolded laundry in a pile for about a week before folding.
i AM that wife who stands by her husband through EVERYTHING, no matter what, i support him.
i AM that annoying mother who brags about everything her child accomplishes.
i AM that girl that forgives over and over and over again.
i AM that girl that has too much on her plate and has no clue how to balance her time to do it all.
i AM that mom who will NEVER in a billion years abandoned her children or just give up on them. no matter what.
i AM that girl who adores GOD, but can’t seem to make it church on sunday’s (this is changing this sunday!).
i AM that girl that doesn’t like to say “i love you” unless i REALLY mean it.
i AM that step mother who supports her husband and step daughters relationship and tries in every ounce of her well being to make sure they are together. forever.
i AM that girl who get’s horrible road rage. in my head.
i AM that girl who USED to depend on herself for everything.
i AM that photographer who USED to put her job before her family.
i AM that mom who cried today because my child was gagging and choking on their food..in front of the speech therapist. seriously embarrassing.
lila oddly woke up at 7:30am this morning. it’s not like her to wake up until 9am or later because of her seizure medicine makes her sleepy. so i knew something just wasn’t right. i finally woke up from my morning haze (i’ve been so exhausted lately, i’ve been taking 2 hour naps a DAY!), and looked over at lila and her eyes were fixed to the left and shaking. i knew it. exactly 2 months without a seizure and she has a break through the day her daddy goes back to work. after i gave her valium, and it came out, i called the doc’s and we rushed her in. luckily the seizure stopped, but boy didn’t lila cry her eyes out for 1.5 hours straight. see the valium makes her very sleepy, her muscles very week, and just over all BLAH feeling. so she was exahusted from having the seizure and the valium just added to the mornings event. i thought my head was going to explode from my migraine (which ultimately started by lila’s crying.)and i was so sick to my stomach from not eating breakfast. the on call pediatrician checked out lila (he’s a funny doctor, Dr. S and he wears tie-dye socks and says “shucks” and “oh rats”…haha) and all was well. on the ride home, lila feel asleep. she was so darn tired that when i carried her into the house, she slept the entire time! and is still sleeping 3 hours later. and yes i checked to make sure she’s still breathing. that valium is no joke. sometimes in large doses, it can mess with your heart and breathing.because it makes your muscles weak. so i have a watchful eye on her. my sweet little girl. i hate when bad things happen to good people. just stinks:(
i don’t want to brag, but we got ourselves probably the cutest patriots fan EVER known to man kind HA! seriously adorable. i had to bribe her with food to cooperate, because she just woke up from a nap and was moody (just like her momma).
and she even smiled for us! which she’s been doing a lot lately. i just can’t get enough of them
i know the patriots are in their second quarter and not doing to well…but we’re not fair weather fans! GO PAT’s!!!
lila’s first patriots super bowl!
meanwhile daddy is on the couch having minor heart attacks. seriously men only get emotional over one thing..and it’s sports..or better yet FOOTBALL! my husband is angry one second, screaming with excitement the next….then completely upset/sad..and then yelling at the TV. hahaha! my dad is EXACTLY the same way! i don’t get it.
and the black stuff under her eyes is mascara. it’s all i had
lila is seeing a speach therapist this week and we will be discussing how lila eats, if she’s doing it the right way or the wrong way. how well her mouth tones work and get her started on my chunkier solids. before every bath, we’re going to let her have full range of the food and will be teaching her how to pick up food and put it in her mouth.
here’s the end result of today’s teaching. EVERYWHERE!
and i understand i posted like 6 blogs in two days. HA! i had a lot of catching up to do i guess:)
today is lila’s first super bowl with the patriots, so i’m sure you’ll see a few images on her and her jersey!
i’ve been a slacker. i might be a photographer, but i stink at printing and organizing my own pictures. last week i decided to make and print an album for emma and lila. every visit with emma, i make her an album to look back on and remember all our special memories together:) so i’m sending out her album below for valentines day. i have yet to print any albums of her trips, ugh. it’s not cheap at all. i figured we’ll get emma’s images out to her first and one day i’ll scrap enough money and print all of them for us! i also made an album from lila’s 1st birthday bash. i still need to edit last year images and make a BIG album..before the spring is my goal OR maybe before she’s two! ha!
I used the camera for 1.5 years before purchasing the Canon 5D Mark II. Obviously the camera is no longer for sale at B&H so it’s a little outdated. I used it as a primiary camera for 1.5 years and then a back up (which was hardly used after the 1.5 years). It has a few scratches.
It comes with two batteries. Battery charger. Battery Pack (shown). And maybe the strap, if I can find it.
I would highly suggest sending it away for a good cleaning. But other then that in good working order. I’ll take a picture with it in a few mintues and post it below. Just so you have an idea that it’s working and pictures turn out fine.
Remember folks, FULL frame without the full frame cost.
The funds will go towards another 5D Mark II back up camera. This summer I plan on purchasing the Canon 85mm 1.2 L lens too..eeks! I haven’t purchased a new toy in a long time!
Email me at sierra@sierrakphotography.com if interested.
Test image below. I only made it a bit darker, since i slightly over exposed (not used to the screen!). I have to admit, after using it, the camera feels like better quality then my mark II and it’s so much more quiet too!
Remember (again) there are dust spots on the images, you need to send this away for a cleaning (like any other camera).
so i’ve been an etsy fan lately. well i’ve always been a fan, but i’ve been skimming through the site and “pinning” my favorite ideas and i came across THIS idea! i’ve been needing some wall decor for the kitchen and thought this would look CAHHute in a white mat and 8×10 frame! on the etsy website, just to get a print of this puppy was $25 (not including shipping) and then add in the cost of the frame! probably would’ve run me close to $40. so for about a week now, i’ve been brainstorming what i could to make this! i had some left over credit on a vector website (from the business) and purchased the state of maine illustrator file. made it all white, saved it and then re-opened in photo-shop and change colors and added the heart (a free FONT i downloaded). i wanted it simple, but of course i had to write out maine. cute?! now printing. i would print it off at home, except it would take 100 gallons of ink and that stuff is expensive! so i’m going to print it at staples for .59 tomorrow and buy a cheapo frame & mat and hang it up in the kitchen! my budget is no more then $10, so i’m saving $30 bucks! cheya!
i’ll hopefully have a second tomorrow to print and get the materials and i’ll take a picture! my husband is still talking about moving out to the mid-west..and if God decides to open doors in the future, i’ll def. be hanging this up in my kitchen! there’s no place like home
in all this took me 1 hour to make. don’t judge..i’m no illustrator expert. actually when i took the class in college, i cringed at the idea of illustrator every time the professor mentioned or made us work in it! yuck!
i went with browns, because my kitchen is rustic maine theme. you know.. bears, moose and rustic wood.
HA! seriously adorable. i had to bribe her with food to cooperate, because she just woke up from a nap and was moody (just like her momma).
and i understand i posted like 6 blogs in two days. HA! i had a lot of catching up to do i guess:)
